I've haven't been sleeping well for these past few days. At all. The feeling is really crappy. And my mood also went down alot.

Just went online to relax and end up logging out more unhappy than ever. If its anyone's fault, then its mine.

Sometimes I really wish I can just stop talking to people. To me, socialising with people just requires me to make so much extra more effort. It's not my natural habit to even try to make conversation. Even if I do speak, I end up saying the wrong things. So what's the use of trying to engage in daily coversations with people when you can't even have the "right" words to say. As if there's suppose to be a specific of right words to say.

I am just so very tired, of it all. The urge to scream and tear out my hair, once again, is back. Of course I can only do so after my cousin's wedding tomorrow. How can I go to a wedding with all the tattered hair?